family pressure

I don't know how to feel, I thought I was numb but I wasn't nagsakit latta mangngug ibagbag da mama kin papa well Amin da. Awan kanu bilib da kinyak uray idi Mut ubing nak never kayu naging proud kinyak awan ti inubrak nga mayat. All my life ive been seeking validation from you uray kasla agpapansin ti awra Kun I never mind. I feel like I'm an outcast never been the favourite but the most hated one.  Nagpelo kanayun nak maico compare never da pay inbaga kinyak nga proud nak kinyam proud nak ti narating mu nu di kitdi puru awan serserbik awan serserbi pinagbasak dambul nak Amin mutlangunun nagsakit permi lalu aggapu pay mismo nagannak ku agita nga sasau. Kasla pinagbasak Dak as an investment kin to make me their alalay. Nagpelo nagsakit Madi da lang maremind nga tau nak uray haan nga anakun uray kasla Tau langunun haan da lang mapanunut nga masaksaktan nakun. Adda Mut pusuk masaksaktan uray adda lang bassit. Now I wonder Ammu da ngata nu nya favorite color ku nu nya kayatak nga badu? Nu inya kayatak kanun or Ammu da ngata soft hearted nak lang? Nga adda lang bassit kut masaksaktan nakun. Kaanuk tu ngata maramdaman ti ayat da nga haan pilit kin haan ku dawdawatun ay kusa da latta nga itidun nagsakit promise nu Ammu yu lang Kuma nu mamin anuk sangsangitan agita bagbaga yu kinyak agsardung kayu ngata?

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